requiem i found out today yr dead & so for me today you died i found out today yr dead & so for me today you died i hope it doesn’t hurt you making you die for me today you must have died so many times & now you’ve died for me today if i'd known you when you died that day i could have cried with Everyone who knew you then with Everyone who loved you then with Everyone… but i found out today yr dead & so for me today you died & it’s not like i thought we’d meet but i liked that you were there & now there’s nothing that we will ever share except yr death today except yr death today except yr death today except yr death today i found out today yr dead

i could insane myself (traffic song) i could insane myself i could insane myself listening to whatever symphony is at hand listening to whatever symphony is at ear i’m lulled to sleep by cars i’m lulled to sleep by trucks i’m lulled to sleep bicycles and other traffic stuffs i’m lulled to sleep by cars and trucks and not just traffic stuffs but car noises, truck noises, startings and stallings and screechings and moanings and other traffic stuffs i’m lulled awake by cars i’m lulled awake by trucks i’m lulled awake bicycles and other traffic stuffs i’m lulled awake by cars and trucks and not just traffic stuffs but car noises, truck noises, startings and stallings and screechings and moanings and other traffic stuffs i could insane myself i could insane myself listening to whatever symphony is at hand listening to whatever symphony is at ear i only know i’m sleeping when i wake up drool cheeked, raged haired, wondering if i just missed a terrific traffic sound. i could insane myself i could insane myself listening to the world’s thunderous symphony of spinning round and round and round and round and round and around and around and around and around and around and around i could insane myself i could insane myself listening to one of dead John’s cages

meditation on death (love song) i meditate on my death every morning & i meditate on my death every night i meditate on my death every morning & i meditate on my death every night i meditate on inevitable death everyday i see myself as dead i meditate on inevitable death everyday i see myself as dead everyday i see myself as dead everyday i see myself torn to shreds by knives or gunfire, or struck by lightning burnt in a fire or drowned in the river dying slowly of a disease shaken to death by a great earthquake a fall from a thousand foot cliff to the sea i meditate on my death every morning & i meditate on my death every night i meditate on my death every morning & i meditate on my death every night & since – i met you since – i met you i meditate on yr death every morning & i meditate on yr death every night i meditate on yr death every morning & i meditate on yr death every night i meditate on inevitable death everyday i see you as dead i meditate on inevitable death everyday i see you as dead electrocuting yourself with the toaster i see you walking and hit by a bus one day just knowing that you've left me falling down stairs and breaking yr neck shaken to death by a great orgasm waking up one morning to find you gone & you say it's inevitable that we'll one day separate even if we spend our whole lives together one of us will die we will each one day die one of us will die one of the most beautiful things that anyone has ever told me was that you think i could be present for the moment of yr death and it to not be a distraction from the moment of yr death from the experience of yr death from the experience of yr death for you believe that death's a new moment that we experience always alone death is a precious moment that we experience always alone another moment to experience to experience alone and other's company in that moment could detract, could draw away from yr mindfulness of the moment mindfulness of the moment death is a new moment death is a new moment rising and passing away rising and passing away rising and passing away all of the moments that we have in this life rise and fall – they all fade away and we are just this moment we are impermanent, each moment new new every moment – every moment every moment there is a new you a new you every moment every moment – we are anew & i meditate on my death every moment